累了…

童年虽然美丽精彩，但忘记的却比记得的还多……

somehow, i feel things for me are always too complicated, hard for me to accept. today is another long day, i hate to go home late, to teach tuition, but i hate to go home early too...

家家有本难念的经, i feel so tired and sick of things that are happening around me and in my family, though i may always tink that i got the ability to cope with many things at once, in fact i don... i am like forced to do lots of things that i usually don do and i jus hate to like enter into the adult world at this age, which is 无情的，现实的，残酷的…

since last year, after entering to jc life, i noe that this will be terrible for me, i hate this lifestyle but realli i had no other choices, poly is too eX for me... i skip the 1st 3 months and i tink i wasted too much time, enjoying and spending money... i noe that 我在逃避现实, cant accept the fact to live in this manner, and the reason that i skip 1st 3 months is to like 松口气 b4 the real start of things... now, though i didnt regret skipping the 1st 3 months, i am like 在跟时间赛跑, and i realli lack motivation to work hard, as there are realli too much things to be attended to... i feel restricted, exhausted, and realli wan to give up... things are happening so fast that it is like alr half a year gone... wat have i achieve? Nothing.

common tests are over, obviously, without completing much work and tutorials, of cos didnt expect much. got back phy, 14/40, and chinese 16/30. though not good results, but somehow give me some 安慰, cos i expected myself to do much terrible than this. the only thing that i realli hope is to clear my promo, to get to j2 1st...

孙燕姿《逃亡》

踩著月光　　打开车窗　
离开这城市　想找个解放
一路开往　　最高那一座山　
孤单的想像　寂寞的逃亡

last time didnt realli understand this song at all, cos wat i see in the past is jus a small part of the world, the nicer and better part of the world. now, finally get wat a little this song means le... realli feel like leaving this world to take a break.

努力的终点在哪里？我累了，连呼吸都慢了… 我想逃。