Hatred

due to the limitations of this computer, i have to use everyting in english or pin yin. sadded.

this weekend jus sux. bad news. totally in a horrible mood, lots of reasons. cos of some decisions made by some ppl, lots of ppl have to suffer wid him for alr at least 4 to 5 years. b4 this month end, i have to leave that idiotic and disgusting place, to find any place to stay in. i hate that bitch. i seldom use tis word, but it's jus, everytime i reach home, it's jus hatred, anger. she made everyting seem so nice in front of ppl and backstabbing everyone. an adult's way of doing things indeed. i gave that "leave me alone" look. no one scolded me. my bro and mum felt the same way, jus that they kept it to themselves.

the taiwan trip. i gave up. i want to go, but no choice. can see that my mum realli hope to send me go there play for a week or so. and even say like give me $300 for the 1st payment. as to do someting rite i tink, i replied her in sms, "i gave up hope. on the trip and someone else..."

i shld be happie actualli. got my pay 195.55. but too many probs had to be settled. i didnt go for the walk. not that i don wan to go, but if i go, i noe i will end up venting anger on everyone there. later in few mins time' i will need to go teach tuition. my eyes are half-opened, after working 8 hours jus now. sometimes, jus feel so lost. so disappointed in the one who brings me to this world. i realli hope i didnt come here. not seeing anyting good nor bad. i hate the situation that i am in now. tml's chinese test, still lots not covered. i don noe how to continue. feel like quitting school.

i normally don hate tings for long, but this time is an exception.