不要再说以前

finally back to school! haha. the perfect computer to blog. this week, honestly quite tiring. working so many hours, my eyes are like closing soon.

"tiny, the world is moving without you." one told me today. ya, i'm seriously behind others. realli. tink what i need is to see the importance of promo. don noe lei. though i noe i have to score for my promo, what i actualli wan is jus get to j2. 1 a, 2 ao. it's enough. got back my common tests all quite bad. maths 30%, phy 40%, gp 45%. terrible. but, haiz. not that i don have aims in life or don wan to score well, but i feel, what points getting fantastic results? haiz. still don noe myself well. maybe i am still in the dreamy world of my own.

family tings are bothering me, i hate to get involved in anyting. hate it. the more tings i noe, the more i will hate the ppl around me. sometimes realli feel, my whole family from grandmas to grandsons, all don noe how to communicate well and be understanding. cant stand these ppl. wonder why they are sent to Earth. if here is where they belong, i rather leave this place. be lost in nowhere.

k k, got lessons to attend le. stop here. today still have a long day, working from 6 to 10 pm. haiz. sianz.

他总是说：
“我以前在佛教界我帮了很多人，每个人都尊敬我…”
要让我知道我的父亲是如此伟大
她总是说：
“我以前半工半读，回到家还要煮菜、做家务…”
要让我知道我的母亲是如此能干
他们就只会提起从前
现在呢？
他们的现在却让我失去走下去的勇气、毅力…